Here I Am God!

For some time (maybe longer than I would have wanted), I’ve been wrestling with going in the direction that God wants me to go in.

I love helping people and even though helping feels the most comfortable to me, God is wanting me to initiate and pioneer which is so uncomfortable for me, to say the least. He is placing me in positions of leadership which I know is a purposeful act on God’s part that will ultimately develop and cultivate those skills in me. Awesome! That’s great because I’m growing but just know that growth is not comfortable. It is uncomfortable and it requires me to get out of my internal or external places of comfort and LEAD.

In addition to being uncomfortable, it is scary. Don’t get me wrong, just because something is scary doesn’t mean I’m fearful. God doesn’t give us the spirit of fear. His perfect love casts out all fear. However, its scary because #1. I’m surely uncertain (see what I did there) of whats to come and #2 I’m choosing to do what God wants me to do and not what I’m expected to do.

As a young college woman, there are many societal expectations either directly or indirectly placed on me. From what I’m expected to wear, hang out with, drink, do,  listen, watch etc… Nonetheless, God’s standard is NOT the world’s standard and as a daughter of God, I’m living up to His standard for my life. Scary? Yes. Am I afraid? Honestly, on a good day, Nope. (Still working on that consistent fearlessness) Is it worth it? ALL THE WAY.

If you’ve read my previous blog, then you know that I announced that I’m an Editor for the Orlando Christian Voice. It’s officially been 4 months since I’ve had the position and already God has blown me away. First of all, lets just have a praise break because I still have the job. In addition, he’s allowed me to connect with amazing people in the city of Orlando who are on fire for God and His word and I’m serving alongside a team of writers who are gifted and talented leaders in their field. I also got to not only watch live, not only meet, not only sit down with, but INTERVIEW one of my favorite male Gospel singers, Jonathan McReynolds. Wow. He is such a humble guy who truly desires to advance the Kingdom of God in this generation.

You can check out the interview here.

I’m excited to see what God will do through the network of One Christian Voice, the current, and future divisions around the world.

Anyhow, remember when I mentioned my love for helping? Well, there’s a nonprofit based in Miami, Florida called Fortress of Hope Psalm 18. Fortress of Hope is committed to fighting against child sexual abuse and raising awareness about the long-term effects. This is a ministry that is SO needed in this world and even in these past couple of weeks, I’ve noticed the hashtags and social media awareness about sexual assault and harassment not only in the workplace but even in the church (#MeToo & #ChurchToo).

1 in 4 girls and 1 in 6 boys are sexually abused before the age of 18. The long term effects of child sexual abuse are detrimental in this world and can be detrimental in the lives of those affected if healing and empowerment does not happen. Fortress of Hope is on a mission to support, mentor, and empower survivors through monthly support groups and I am so excited to announce that I am serving this organization as a Project Manager and there will be a division launching in the city of Orlando in January 2018 including monthly survivors support group meetings!! Yay!! I am confident God is moving and will continue to move mightily through Fortress of Hope.

Check out our Facebook page.

I remember the initial excitement I felt about this new opportunity and as time went on fear and doubt began to cripple me and almost led me to step away from the chance to serve with this ministry.

It is so easy to just be aware about the problems in this world. The rise of social media especially has made it so that a simple like, hashtag or share can be seen as support but God is calling us to awaken the creativity inside of us to take action and solve the problem. You were made on purpose but are you living on purpose?

The other day, I was falling in and out of sleep and I saw an image of a text notification on my laptop of a verse in the book of Matthew 25:14-29. In that passage, Jesus delivers the parable of the talents. He talks about a master entrusting his servants with talents. To one he gave five and to another two and to another one, each according to his ability. The servant who received five talents made five talents more and the one who had two talents made two talents more. The master told them both “Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.” The one who received the one talent was afraid and HID his talent in the ground. He was called wicked, slothful and cast away. His talent was given to the one who had ten talents. For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance.

Wow. I was shook. God has given each and every one of us gifts and talents to invest and use on this Earth. You are called to live on purpose and faithfully use what God has given you for His glory. The servant with one talent was AFRAID. Fear has led so many people to keep their gifts dormant inside of them! We try to rationalize how we should use our gifts and end up not using them at all! God is trying to get us to depend on Him and exercise our Faith muscles. That means that we have to trust him beyond our own understanding and it means you will be uncertain about specific outcomes but in due season you will reap the reward of your faithfulness.

God is searching this entire earth for someone to use. I always say I’m not qualified for the positions I’m called into but I’m willing. There are more than enough talented and gifted people but not enough willing and surrendered lives. Be a willing and surrendered life. God can do the impossible with just one but he can do nothing with an unwilling person.


P.S: Two of my friends & I have started a Youtube series titled Trill Trinity where we explore controversial topics from a Christian perspective. Check out our first season on YouTube here!




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